Sorry

Well my last post was "MIA" regarding my husband and then I go MIA. Anyway I lost 1.75 pounds, I know it really doesn't seem like alot, but those little pounds add up after awhile, plus losing weight slow is the healthier way to loss it. Although I would love to loss 5 pounds every time I go, but that is just not the reality of my life. I did start a cleanse today, which will help a little in my weight lose endeavor. I haven't done one for a while and I don't think they are healthy to do alot, but every once in a while you gotta clean out the pipes. I've been thinking alot about where I am in my life and I think if I had more self control with my weight, I would have more control over my life. My weight has really influenced most of my decisions, I mean I can't fit into certain clothes, so I chose to stay home and hide. It's sad because I have really let myself down, and my husband down. I guess all I can say is I'm sorry and I am trying to fix it, hopefully it's not too late for me to gain some control of my weight, my health and my life.

MIA

First I need to explain my absence, not that anyone is really reading this, but just in case. Last time I blogged it was the day I was bringing my daughter back to school, which was Thursday night. Well I decided to stay Friday night also, couldn't bring my self to leave, and then stayed most of the day Saturday. So by the time I got home Saturday I was just too sad to blog, then Sunday I just forgot, so there is a long excuse for what boils down to I just was sad and lazy. Which could expain why on the drive home I ate a whole bag of pita chips and a box of milk duds! The funny thing is I stayed the same on the scale Monday. I just don't get it, seems like I gain more weight when I really am trying, go figure. So now to address my title, "MIA", of course I am speaking about my husband. I don't know what to do with him, he is suppose to be bloggging, which even once a week would show a little committment, but I can't seem to get him to cooperate! Any suggestions on how to get him motivatied? I have been sweet, grumpy, demanding, nothing has worked. He did at one time say he would do this, but now he seems to have forgotten commiting to this project. Oh well, I would like to say I lost some weight, but I have stayed the same for over a week. We went shopping Sunday and bought all the healthy foods to get on the track to weight loss again, so we'll see. I can say one thing...those milk duds were awesome!!!

Rainy Day a Thursdays...

I woke to rain, which normally I don't mind, especially if I have no place to go. But today I did have to go somewhere, today is the day I bring my daughter back to school. No keep in mind this isn't the first year or even the second, this is the fourth year and her senior year. I should be used to it, but I still get sad, which in my case means I still get fat. I do know that filling the void with food is not only a bad idea, but it really doesn't help, but unfortunately that just doesn't stop me. Today I ate ice cream, not just ice cream but Cold Stone, with Carmel, fudge, chocolate chips and cookie dough. I told you yesterday I am the very definition of GLUTTONY. But tomorrow is a new day and even though I will be leaving her, I am going to do my best to remember myself in this whole thing. There are days that I wonder if the whole diet, trainer thing is really worth it, but then I remember how I felt just two months ago and I find some resolve. With a little faith and help from my husband I will get through this just fine. I will miss her, but the next time she sees me I want her to say, "mom you are lookin good!" and to be proud of me. Well more tomorrow, wish me luck

GLUTTONY

I would like my second blog to be full of encouragement and good news, but I'm afraid it's just not all good. I mean the good news is I went and worked out, also I didn't gain any weight! But the other side of that is I didn't lose any either. I guess I shouldn't be disappointed since it could have gone the other way, but when you pay for a trainer you feel like you just wasted your money. Now the bad news, GLUTTONY!!! I went to lunch with my daughter and a couple friends, and first we chose Chinese, second I ate until I was just sick to my stomach. You would think I had never had sesame chicken. Really I was just ashamed of myself...GLUTTONY! Do you know the actual definition of GLUTTONY? "excessive eating and drinking." It might as well of had my name and picture under the definition of GLUTTONY. OK enough self pity and self loathing, I will do better tomorrow. Why?! Because I do care. I do want to change the way I look and feel. I get discouraged when I have these set backs, but I need to give my self a break and just start over tomorrow. Oh and the other thing to note is I ate after weigh in so officially I didn't gain any weight today! See if you look hard enough there is always a silver lining. More tomorrow, hey where is my better half's post?

This blog was created to encourage other couples with the struggle of weight loss. We want to share our journey with you, the good, the bad and the ugly. My husband, Fred for this blog, and myself, Wilma, will blog everyday, separately. We will each share our own personal victories and defeats. We are changing our eating habits to be calorie appropriate and working out at the gym with a trainer, on weights and with some cardio.

We have been married for 22 years and have slowly increased our weight each year. I have been more of a yo-yo dieter than Fred, but either way we had to chose life over death. I know that seems a bit dramatic, but when you reach our age and our weight it is simply fact. We chose life!!! The good news is we chose it together, which hopefully will make it easier, or we'll kill each other, either way we are in this as a couple. So here we go, we appreciate any advice, words of wisdom or prayers. Good luck honey and I love you.

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